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To The Person Putting Their Dog Down Today
I wish I could have hugged you
I saw you as I pulled in to the veterinary specialist office today, along with several others, all waiting in the parking lot for a staff member to come out and take people’s pets into the clinic. Like the others, you were wearing a mask, but unlike everyone else sitting in their cars or standing idly looking at a phone, you paced the parking lot nervously, and kept stopping to bend down and embrace your elderly dog. I knew immediately what you were going through. People only show up to this particular animal clinic for surgeries, emergencies, and goodbyes.
When I parked, I called the office, informing them that my dog was ready to be taken in. We first started coming to this office a few months ago, when I was sure it was going to be time to say goodbye to my best friend. But we found out that two very expensive surgeries could extend her life, both in quantity and quality, so we made them happen. Today, she was just getting x-rays to make sure the most recent surgery was successful. Today, I would be picking her up later, and bringing her home to play with my children. Today, I feel so guilty that I am relieved that I am not you.
As I pulled away, I saw a doctor taking the leash from you as you trembled and cried. I thought about the candle they light in the office whenever a pet is being…
